N Sunday, August 01, 2004
just got hm nt long.
i gave my 10dollar NEW note tt i've been tryg hard to keep to my sis cus she was really in need of cash.
hopefully when shes back, the note is still with her. hrmpfs!
rahh.
had lunch with my sunshine and my pl aft sch on fri.
my sunshine cudnt stop laughg at the way i eat my "smash potato". haha.
"smash potato" meant to be whipped potato.. bt according to mj, its smash potato. lol.
yupps. aft lunching, went hm.
sunshine was nice nluff to walk me hm. :))`
out ltr in the evening.
everyone left cept me n mj till macs closed - 12midnight.
talked to her.
felt much better.
if nt for her, i wunt knw huw long i cn bottle it all inside.
alr broke down in sch on fri.
dunt want a second time.
dunt wanna scare everyone sittg near me. haha.
my big aunt is here.
1wk earlier than expected.
bloody
shit red.
cramps and backaches.
my mum said becus i haven been eatg at hm and haven been havg nluff rest tts why its 1wk earlier. bleahs.
met mj.
went popularing.
bot 1 pen, 1 eraser, leads and ruler.
and i dint knw ruler cost only 25cnts. haha.
b4 tt, i washed my pencil case at hm!
bloody proud of myself.
all stains gone.
looks like brand new!! hahaha.
im gonna take proper care of it.
two sicklings were out tgt.
mj was feelg faint and i was hafg bloody cramps.
went to the interchange macs first to sit.
then went over to the other wan. hahhs.
dinner. evan came.
then she left. leavg only me n mj again.
talk n talk again.
rahhh.
fucked up.
sometimes i really wanna give up.
give all these up.
my heart is tired, tired of all these hurts and pains.
bt no, im holding on tight.
bt if im left with no choice.
im sorry.
its just another tough patch in my life.
whatever.
no pt ranting it in here.
for ppl who have any slight idea whats goin on.
i suggest you keep it to urself.
thnks a plenty.
and this fucking guy added me in msn.
i asked who is he.
and he said "ur vagina".
FUCK OFF.
im off no mood for all these.
bastard.
sunshine* haha. i dint do much la. bt no matter what happen, rem i will always be here for u. even if im nt by ur side.. just look up in the sky at night! u will see me there. and thnks for being there for me when i needed someone, esp on fri. when you saw me cryg, you even changed plc with grace to console me. haha. reallie appreciate it. n you are reallie my sunshine. making me laugh when im down. lastly, i love you! :))` and i will try to eat my "smash potato" faster.. hehs.
mingjie* thnks for the past two nights. thnks for all the talks, advices.. tryg to help me out with it.. reallie appreciated it alot. and i promised tt if you need someone, u cn always look for me. 24/7 open for you. haha. i'll be ur listeng ears and any secrets wud be safe in my hands. *cheeky grinns* cnt talk to you tmr. sadly.. bt i will miss you!! love ya! :D
cher* thnks for everything - for listeng , for advicing (thou i dunt listen) during chinese lessons. and dunt blame urself for making me cry the 2nd time cus its nt ur fault. haha. i still love you no matter what! and anything, you cn always tok to me. i will be here to listen, i promise. you cn always count on me. you better tkcr during obs kays! will miss u plenty. -mwahhh!
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